Struggle
Assalamualaikum and greetings, earthling :) Whoever knows me like really knows me well will realise the changes in my personality. From a very outspoken girl to a very timid person. Whenever I look back, I feel so sad. My heart ache at how much I've changed. A simple word that came out from someone's mouth with the intention of being "funny" and to "tease" someone can really change one's life. Even though all this time I kept on reassuring myself that whatever they said are simply a joke and doesn't mean anything, at some point of my life without even realising it, I give in and even believed their words. That's why they said that words are prayers( kata-kata itu satu doa ). Psychologically, I am forced to accept and believed things that are continuously said to me. Its like some kind of mantra/ spell. ***** I am still recovering. Collecting pieces of my self that has been smashed by those people. Self-esteem. Confidence. Courage.